So, it has been four months.
Elisabeth. Oh, how I wish I had tell you how much I love you. If you knew how important you are to me… If you knew how it kills me to know that you’re not around. Those eyes, those eyes were like windows to your pure, angelic soul.
You’ve taught me so many things. You’ve taught me to be strong, to love my life, the live it as the fullest. Even in your darkest hour, you’ve taught us all that death isn’t scary. I’m quite glad I didn’t know you had cancer because it would be a lot harder than it is now. It wasn’t fair, in my mind, your farewell wasn’t fair.
What am I even saying? This is not our farewell. Wherever you are, just look at your legacy. Look at all the people that growed up watching you, loving you, wanting to one day just greet you and say how amazing you are. Look at your beautiful family. Look at the world. As long we remember you, you are not dead. You’re not dead, Lis. You’re still here. In my heart.
In everyone’s heart.
One of the things I regret the most was not meeting you. It could be for one hour or one second. I wouldn’t matter. Just the thought of your warmness inside my soul would make my heart burst like a supernova. Like Coldplay said,
“Nobody said it was easy, but nobody said it would be this hard…”
And they couldn’t be more right.
Elisabeth. Oh my Elisabeth Claira. I miss you.
Remember when your otherself said “When you think you’re alone, just look at the sky. Chances are that someone very dear to you might be looking at the sky too, and perharps, for a second, the universe isn’t that big”? I think that’s what is happening. I’ve been looking at the night sky, at the stars for 4 months now, hoping that wherever you are now, you’d be looking at the same stars. Or at least you’re looking at me. At everyone of us. Because we love you, Lis. You’re our angel.
I know you’re watching over us, dear. Up there, in the sky, among the stars where you have always belong and in our hearts, where we carry your smile.
One day, I’ll rose my hand up, to the sky. I’ll be trying to reach for you. And I know I will because I believe it. I believe I can do whatever I want. Because you taught me that. See? You’re the best role model I could ever had.
Thank you so much, Lis.
“So sorry your world is tumbling down
I will watch you through these nights
Rest your head and go to sleep
Because my child, this not our farewell.
This is not our farewell.”
